More than ever, I feel like I am an outsider looking in.
Cal's normal life is a reminder of how abnormal Jackson's is and that's just such a bitter pill to swallow.
Jackson is included in so many ways: boy scouts, soccer, basketball camp, gymnastics. People know him that we don't know. And yet; I'm reminded again that we're just outsiders looking in on life for everyone else. We live inside a glass shell, able to see out, but not interact in the world around us. It's depressing.
Now the world around us is pressing in. Cal is in that world around us, functioning. He's laughing, returning conversations with others. He's got real friendships. I'm so happy for him, and even more heartbroken for the missing pieces in Jackson's life....
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